Sometimes it takes a while to see that there is nothing I can add to myself to make me more aware and conscious. But if I watch myself in action, without condemning or judging, I may find I’m asleep most of the time. Krishnamurti gives a great example of this.
“Can you practice awareness? If you are ‘practicing’ awareness than you are being inattentive. So, be aware of inattention, you do not have to practice. You do not have to go to Burma, China, India, places which are romantic but not factual. I remember once traveling in a car in India with a group of people. I was sitting in the front with the driver. There were three behind who were talking about awareness, wanting to discuss with me what awareness is. The car was going very fast. A goat was in the road, and the driver did not pay much attention and ran over the poor animal. The gentlemen behind were discussing what is awareness, but they never knew what had happened! You laugh, but that is what we all are doing.
–Jiddu Krishnamurti The Flight of the Eagle
Right while you are talking, you can become aware. Listen to yourself converse with people, then ask, “Why did I say that?”
“What was my real motive?”
“Did I speak impulsively?”
“Did I say that nervously?”
“Did I speak because I was fearful of the silence?”