Looking through the J Krishnamurti online archive, I came across the following excerpt entitled Facing Violence.
I read it several times in order to grasp the depth of understanding presented here. You might do the same.
Sir, take violence. Again, let us think that thought through. First, I do not like to acknowledge that I am violent, because socially and morally I am told that to be violent is a very bad thing. But the fact is I am violent. So I meditate, I compel, I try to become something else – but I never face what I actually am, which is violent. I spend my time trying to transform what is into something else. To transform, I must look at what is; and I am not looking at it as long as I have an ideal. If I see that, I set aside the ideal, which is non-violence, and look at violence, and then I am fully aware that I am violent; and the very fact that I am directly conscious of it brings about transformation. Experiment with it and you will see. This refusal to see what is – that is the problem with all of us. I never want to look at what is. I never want to acknowledge that I am ugly – I always give reasons for my ugliness; but if I look at my ugliness as it is, without explanation or excuse, then there is a possibility of transformation. So, to think a thought through is to see how thought is deceiving itself, running away from what is. You can think a thought out fully, completely, only when you stop all avenues of escape and then look at it – which requires an extraordinary honesty; and as most of us are dishonest in our thinking, we never want to see any thought through. It is the discovery of how thought is deceiving itself that is important; and when you discover its deceitfulness, then you can face what is. Then only what is reveals its full significance, its meaning.
– Jiddu Krishnamurti The Collected Works
Inner Life Exercise
“Your deliberate walk into your own inner darkness enables your own cosmic sun to rise.”
– Vernon Howard