From a talk By Vernon Howard
Surrender, submission means that you say to yourself—listen—“Nothing but my hell,”—This is very advanced. You won’t get it but you—“nothing but my pain,” but knowing that it’s there. Now, you’ve arrived at the state of no choice, of no selection of what you are going to do about the pain.
You want that event tomorrow—the expectation, the hope, to make you feel better. You’re in pain. Of course, you are. All expectations, all hopes are in pain. You stick with the pain itself without giving yourself any escape, any alibis, any explanation, no comfort, no hope till there’s nothing but pain. What have you done?
The pain, belonging to the lower levels of the psychic system, of the mind and of the feeling, if this is all there is, if there’s nothing but agony, then there can’t be an opposite which will continue it in another disguise. You’ve destroyed the opposites and when you destroy your escape from the pain, you destroy the pain itself because the pain and your escape—your whole, “Ah, tomorrow it will…”—that is destroyed too. Understand?
When you do this, you have risen above the opposites thinking of the ordinary intellect and risen up above it to consciousness, to awareness where there can’t be any pain at all. That’s how you escape the prison camp, by understanding the working of the prison camp itself.