I got to pondering my life this morning. Over the years, people have made many promises towards me, which I thought would forfill me. Then I started thinking about all the promises I made to myself for some future reward. The future arrived many times, but the promised rewards did not. They have always been very close, but just out of reach. They arrived diluted and not with the promised richness predicted. Then, astonshingly brand new promises emerged in my thinking for more new future rewards. Something inside cannot continue with this pattern.
For example my mind promises me through planning, contriving, and calculating these new rewards. These rewards that never fully arrive in their preceived richness. What if I have been using the wrong tool? If you get your car stuck in mud, and if you realize by observation, that the car is getting even more stuck, you stop this action, and try something new.
Therefore, what would happen if I didn’t do what I always do? No planning, contriving, or calculating my next move. Could I have been dreaming this whole life up? Who is this person that I think I am and never question his trueness? What a new doorway this is. I have no idea where this leads, but I do know where the mind that promises leads – no where. My mechanical mind does not like the direction of this inquiry. My mechanical mind is being exposed as the promising fool it truly is. Doing the same thing over and over is not intelligent.
By watching that mind in action, I can see memory plays a huge part in my future doing. Showing up all day long, directing my every move with it’s comments and recorded knowing. It wants to control my destiny by keeping me in the dark, hushed, and enslaved. Only by seeing it in action can I understand the part it plays. I am not my memories.
Vernon Howards Teachings provide a safe way to demo your present thinking, so you find the new. The new does not make promises, it delivers freshness in spirit and overall living right in this moment. There is plenty for anyone who also wants to break their unwanted patterns. I have no idea where this will take me and furthermore, I don’t care, because I sense I have found the “Sacred Source” that I have been searching for all my life. My personal relief is enough.
Catching your memory trying to impose on the present moment is so inspiring. “There it is.” Expose this life stealer whenever possible.
People believe they can add Vernon’s teachings on top of their present thinking, but the truth is, one has to get rid of their present thinking to make room for the new. We can’t build on top of another building and expect a strong new structure, so lose the old first to find the new.
The false sense of self makes many “promises” in its narration of an individual’s life, promises that unfortunately have not and never can be lastingly fulfilled. The fake sense of self is not “ours”, nor is it our creation or belong to us personally in any way. In fact it is the very same sense of self that has been narrating all the lives of others as well. It has been doing this narration of lives long enough to become so familiar that when it calls itself “us” or calls something “ours”, it seemingly appears to create believable entities. It is not real and has no real power or influence over us and can easily be made ineffective by mere exposure. Just as a lie does not describe true reality, and when exposed, reveals the underlying truth beneath, what we are, spirit / consciousness, also exposes the lie of the imposter sense of self, and reveals what we actually are beneath, ever present peace, contentment, and fulfillment. The proposition is this: “Can a mechanical series of foreign thoughts, which in attempting to create an entity called “self” and promising to reach a lasting state of satisfaction, through manipulation of itself or others, withstand scrutiny?” The answer is “no”, although the self by being mostly taken for granted is rarely investigated. Spirit which is not an entity, or a thing, cannot be touched by lower deceptions or lies, being above those functions, and is only seemingly, or temporarily thwarted from its ability to expose those deceptions. For when truth is revealed in time, coming along with that discovery is the realization that the truth indeed has always been known, inwardly, and that deception has only had a limited life in time. The key to freedom is the dissolution of any sense of self. When the self is seen through and loses its influence, fear not, all is well, for what will take the imposter’s place is that which has always been there behind the scenes guiding, with wisdom.. The truth is that these very words expose the false nature of the deceptive sense of self, and the realization of this guidance is all that is needed for an individual to come to their own recognition of their own true free nature which has always been there beneath the lie of the self. To be free one must truly be “selfless”. P.S. Steve along with Vernon Howard is doing what anyone sincerely on the path to true freedom has done, share their insights, in order that others may also have an opportunity to free themselves as well.
I have always felt that I did not belong to all the drama around me, but did my very best to try and belong. “What’s wrong with me?” was my favorite cry. What a painful experience. The problem was never out there, but an inward problem of not thinking clearly. Now that I can see this, I have a better understanding of what I am not. I’m none of it because I don’t exist as I once believed I did. Everyone must find this out for themselves, they must follow their heart and not that super tricky mind.
Yes, there can be no Sacred Source and me, because that would not be very Sacred. There is only one Source, otherwise who do I listen to? The Sacred Source or myself? The myself here is simply not real, only a thought.
What would happen if I didn’t do what I always do? Find out, try it. A person either hears the call or they don’t.